ALMOST

Okay, another boring day in the office that leads me to listening to songs available in my iTouch. I listened to a lot of different genre so I have Pop/rock, Alternative, R&B and acoustic songs in my iTouch. I decided to play r&b songs this time, all because I’m into a weird feeling of missing someone right now.

A few months back, I’ve been dating a guy whom I feel a little into. I like him and I wouldn’t deny the fact that I feel happy knowing him. It brought me to life once more, and gave me another chance of opening my heart again. I am a single mother, and as a single parent, I have many responsibilities and priorities in life. I will be very honest, I’m afraid loving someone again, trusting my heart and become broken. It’s not that I completely gave up on love but I promised myself not to be in a relationship without fixing my broken heart. He was one of the perfect guys out there to begin with. He loves my son like his own, and visits my family asking if they will allow him to court me. He also finds time to bond with my friends and never missed a single opportunity of making me special. 

Lately, things did not get used to what I’ve been wishing and praying for. Although, we still constantly chat, I know this will no longer be a soon to be “serious relationship”. Its looks like he gave up on me already, because he’s having a hard time dealing with me.

 So I can relate to this song right now:

"Almost"

[Verse 1]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 2]
I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I should've grabbed you up and never let you go
I should've went out with you
I should've made you my boo boy
Yes that's one time I should've broke the rules
I should've went on a date
Should've found a way to escape
Should've turned a almost into
If it happened now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 3]
(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)